the sewer system :P

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

I want to get married....WAAAAAA!!!







teen marriage? young couples? 
marriage is a binding contract between the two parties that joins together their possessions, income and lives...and most of all share their loves eternally. 
but some define that marriage is a contract between two opposite sexes that create a kinship and produce offspring..

my personal opinion bout marriage is...it is all about LOVE.. Sharing your love and life with the one that who really cares, loves and commit his/her life to you eternally. 

recently, my mind been playing this words..
" I wanna get married!! "..that is all been playing in my mind right now. 



i just can't describe how i feel when i see a picture of a married couple in their wedding portrait, hugging or kissing each other with lots of loves show in their eyes. my heart would sink and beat fast as if it's gonna explode. my mind will start playing love songs and start imagine myself in the most elegant yet sexy wedding gown..walking down the aisle while the sound of the beautiful piano plays..n there, my MACCLEAN GAING ANDREW waiting for me at the altar with his big smile n the loves in his eyes.. Going down the aisle with style and gracefulness..walking slowly to my prince charming who waiting patiently at the altar with a priest in front. Walk to him and stand right next to him and look at the priest together. Say our wedding vows together and make a promise to God that we will always love and care for each other no matter rich or poor, healthy or sick, we will always together, supporting each others and most of all eternally. 
the priest bless us and everyone cheers,and we kiss passionately...hehehehe..




the theme for the wedding reception is " Beach 
Wedding "..it will be held at the most beautiful beach in Sarawak. 

Beach weddings can be truly spectacular and 

memorable romantic landscapes because it offers 

sea, beach and sunset or dawn. 

My dress will be in light purple satin 

strapless dress with sweetheart neckline while 

my Ging will be using this luxurious black LV's 

tuxedo. 

Both of us gonna be the spotlight of the party. 

our families members, beloved friends from 

Kuching, Serian, Bau, Lawas, Miri, Peninsular 

M'sia and all over the place will come over and 

gather in this blissful moment of our life.







everyone will toast and cheer for our happiness 
eternally and we have a great and blast  wedding reception. 



and now, we are officially Husband & Wife..hehehe
I wish too..**dussss****
end of my imagination..hahaha..







But the reality is…


Fear of marriage is based on an irrational 

fear, the refusal to face the responsibilities 

and hardships of life in two. This fear is more 

met in the men who prefer to love without 

formalize the relationship . Marriage anxiety 

is manifested by direct rejections, but with 

different stated reasons that men bring to the 

foreground if possible to postpone a marriage.

You need a very strong commitment in your 

marriage. Patient and understanding with love 

and care is what you require in a TRUE 

MARRIAGE..


After all, we both are still young. Soon, the 

day will come and i promise i will make it last 

forever.. 




** Ging @ Macclean, i love u so much..**

Friday, November 19, 2010

"OK2"

You know that i'm mad...you know that i hate it...instead of making me happy...u just said OK with your low note tone..duhhh...why don't you calm me down...a simple jokes or ILY is enough to put the smile back to my face..i just so mad now...feel wanna scream but i can't coz it's so late..it's almost 3 am now...if i scream, what will the neighbours say...they'll think that something bad had happen...so i only can scream deep down in my mad heart..i don't know why i'm so mad right now...i know u are the best for me..but my emotion control me..it's against me...
I just feel wanna _________________________!!!
 i can't find a suitable word to describe it. 

Now, then you sent me a text telling me that you love me..yah, i love you too.but i'm mad now...till i don't feel wanna reply it...ergghhhhh....

It is hard to make me smile back when i'm not me..now i guess i'm just a lil devil in the face of a sweet looking teenage girl...
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

need to sleep now...even my heart is aching so badly...damn...
i hate myself when i'm mad at you coz u know..i really love you..
i mean it!! 

Thursday, October 21, 2010

VOTE!!

 Please vote me by click LIKE under my profile for the CamQueen of the year 2010..Your vote are most appreciate. TQ..
click the link below to vote for me. =)





                                                                                                 
















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Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Waiting for the end... LINKIN PARK...I just love this song..





Lyrics :
This is not the end 
This is not the beginning, 
Just a voice like a riot 
Rocking every revision 
But you listen to the tone 
And the violet rhythm 
Though the words sound steady 
Something empty's within 'em 

We say Yeah! 
With fists flying up in the air 
Like we're holding onto something 
Thats invisible there, 
Cuz we're living at the mercy of 
The pain and the fear 
Until we dead it, Forget it, 
Let it all disappear. 

Waiting for the end to come 
Wishing I had strength to stand 
This is not what I had planned 
It's out of my control.... 

Flying at the speed of light 
Thoughts we're spinning in my head 
So many things were left unsaid 
It's hard to let you go... 

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on, 
I know how it feels to lie, 
All I wanna do 
Is trade this life for something new 
Holding on to what I haven't got 

Sitting in an empty room 
Trying to forget the past 
This was never meant to last, 
I wish it wasn't so... 

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on, 

I know how it feels to lie, 
All I wanna do 
Is trade this life for something new 
Holding on to what I haven't got 

What was left when that fire was gone? 
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong 
All caught up in the eye of the storm 
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on 
And i don't even know what kind of things I've said 
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead 
So, picking up the pieces, now where to begin? 
The hardest part of ending Is starting again!! 

All I wanna do 
Is trade this life for something new 
Holding on to what i haven't got... 

This is not the end 
This is not the beginning, 
Just a voice like a riot 
Rocking every revision 
But you listen to the tone 
And the violet rhythm 
Though the words sound steady 
Something empty's within 'em 
(Holding on to what i haven't got) 

We say Yeah! 
With fists flying up in the air 
Like we're holding onto something 
Thats invisible there, 
Coz we're living at the mercy of 
The pain and th fear 
Until we dead it, Forget it, 
Let it all disappear 
(Holding on to what i haven't got!)

Waiting for the End (Official HD)


Lyrics :
This is not the end
This is not the beginning,
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violet rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something empty's within 'em

We say Yeah!
With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
Thats invisible there,
Cuz we're living at the mercy of
The pain and the fear
Until we dead it, Forget it,
Let it all disappear.

Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned
It's out of my control....

Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts we're spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It's hard to let you go...

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,
I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got

Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last,
I wish it wasn't so...

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,

I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got

What was left when that fire was gone?
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on
And i don't even know what kind of things I've said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
So, picking up the pieces, now where to begin?
The hardest part of ending Is starting again!!

All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what i haven't got...

This is not the end
This is not the beginning,
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violet rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something empty's within 'em
(Holding on to what i haven't got)

We say Yeah!
With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
Thats invisible there,
Coz we're living at the mercy of
The pain and th fear
Until we dead it, Forget it,
Let it all disappear
(Holding on to what i haven't got!)

Monday, October 18, 2010

Love Your Body. =)




This year...S to M/L...

you get what i mean?  yah..gained weight..
There is nothing worse that waking up in the morning and step up on the **magic weight-teller@ body scale** and puff..." I gained another 2 kilos..!!" fat days...bad hair-day is much better that fat days..It's really suck when you feeling pregnant when you are not..it's feel like there is a big piece of sky drops on your head and knock it hard...ARGGGHHHHH!!!

But...being fat or much better to be heard as CUTE@CHUBBY is not really a big deal at all.. yah..yet i feel sexy n great..hahaha..

from size S to size M n sometime L, from 27 to 29...how big is the different? Btw, it is just the differences of numbers n alphabets...

i'm not that fat just that i gained weight n i look much " CUTER " than my skinny meeny me ** back in 2009**..
a lot of friends said this to me 
" U look so HEALTHY or What happen to you? Why you look so chubby nowadays?? "..
my answer will always be a BIG SMILE on my face..=)


you might think that i sound a lil bit paranoid coz i'm saying myself CHUBBY..yah..it is true, everyone around me know how much i changed this year..i'm not afraid being called Chubby but not FATSO coz i'm not that BIG...hahaha...even thou i feel good but it's doesn't mean that i'm not aware of this. I do faced some normal problems due to my new size..i can't wear my favorite short pant, i can't really wear tight type of clothes** coz it will show off my bloated curve** and some of my outfits can't fit me. I know i can gain weight but i need to control n balance my diet strictly..that is why starting from...** i forget since when, but i just know that i need to slow down my MAN-EATER habit** i decided to stay balance and try to gain my ideal weight back..that is 46-48 kilograms.. 
gained weight is ok as long as you know your limits..

beautiful body is not all about being skinny n tall like the super-model. everyone can feel beautiful..
you can list out the things that you love about your body..such as you love your sexy legs or you just adore your luscious hair. the more you adore them, the more you feel confident of yourself..

just stay healthy, keep your diet balance and never feel UGLY or ASHAMED coz everyone deserved to be feel BEAUTIFUL..


psttt..:: now i'm 50kilos...from 54kilos to 50kilos in just a few weeks..hahaha...




Monday, September 20, 2010