the sewer system :P

Monday, March 22, 2010

some part is never can be erase from here..

how can i forget him..

i just cant forget him. in every single day in my life, i never forget thinking of him not even a second. i always remember every inch of him in me.
forgetting u is the hardest part in my life because i never want to forget u. u love me but then u hurt me. i never thought that it will end like this. i just wish i still can hear ur voice, c ur cute face, look ito ur eyes and touch ur skin liked we used to do..sigh..
even when i'm happy, i just cant forget will always there lingering in my mind...i told myself to stay the way out of this and forget u..but i just can't.. just want u to know..
u make me so broken till i cant open my heart for a new love..i just have to be independent now..without u by my side..without u walk beside, i really wanna c u..but i don't have the guts to text u..i'm afraid of rejection from u..hemm...i just hope u happy right now...i'm always happy for u..i love u baby..

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Thought you always be mine..

how should i start this...ok..take a deep breath..hemmmmm...
i was someone girlfriend before this..and we been couple for the past 4 years plus..and after valentine 2010..we end up our relationship. it was the moment that i never want to recap again. it cuts me so deep till i can't even breath and feel the earth that i'm walking on...i just don't know what to do. he is my only love. he showed me the meaning of relationship. so, i tell myself to stay calm and think at the bright side. i don't wanna be the girl that i used to be before.. the girl that cry and cry when thing got upside down. i just said my prayer and hope that i can face this matter with all the strength that i have.

he is the first in my life. my only one. my only love. i really can't accept the decision that he made but what can i do. i just have to accept it with my willing heart. i'm weak but i know i have to stand strong to deal with it. i don't want to lose him..i don't want to let him slip away..i just love him. he is my love..and i really love him till death. since the day we end our relationship and become friend like we used to be before couple, i just make myself deaf and numb..deaf and numb so i can't hear a single thing or feel all the pain that i'm having. i try to play it cool and find my happiness. but i failed. his image, his warm touch, his lips, his cold hand, his sweet voice, his bright eyes and his cute face keep lingering in my mind till this moment. i just can't forget everything about him. he is so vulnerable n special. i love him a lot. i miss every moments that we shared for the whole 4 years. how i wish i never know him. if we never meet, we will never be like this and i will never get hurt like this. even though we are still friend, still going out together but it will never be the same.i can't touch him, i can't kiss his lips, i can't hugs him and i can't say I LOVE U to him anymore. ya, it's true that i can't live without him. he is my baby. i feel so hurt when he told me that we have to end up this relationship without nothing going wrong in our relationship. i fake a smile so he won't see that i'm sad. he is my everything that i have to live without. i can't even see anyone when he is with me. i wonder if he know all i think about now is him. there he goes so perfectly, leaving me behind alone with this bleeding heart. but i will always love him. infinity..eternity..i love you so much honeybaby..i hope you will always happy, healthy and find your true love. I guess i'm ready to let you leave but i will always love you.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

I like u n i think i'm falling for u.

how could you...i know u wanna forget about me..i know u regretted meeting n knowing me..but i just can't help it..i like u n now i think that i love u. Did u ever think about me?
emmm..i just can't forget the way u smile when u kissed me..**adoi...why u so cute...***huhuhuhu...
I really like it when u wearing your favorite-red shirt...i like it a lot...
I think i just started a joke..if i knew it will happened like this, i will never wanna be close to you..
hemm..i just wish one day, u'll know how i feel to u..i miss the moments that we shared, it still fresh in me.. I still can smell your sweet Channel perfume..still can see the brightness in your eyes..still can feel your warm touch...
I'm totally in love with u..i just wish u know that.. u came in a second n u left me hanging just in a blink...hemmm..u are the "cutest" creature that make me fall so deeply, madly. truly..
No one know about my feeling to u...i just hope one day u'll know how i feel..i really mean it..u stole my heart n u left it half way...i should have know this will happen. I know u r the type that never wanna be serious in relationship..i know u love to party, love hot chicks, love to have fun n fun...hemm..n i know that u are in the HOT-List guys...i just thank's GOD because i got the chance to meet n knowing u even it is  just a moment...
just hope one day i'll find my true love..even though i'm hoping that it is U...

** Knowing u..
** Loving u..
** Hugging u..
** Kissing u..
** Leaving u..
It is hard to do but i have to forget u cause i know we will never be together as 1...
I LOVE YOU.........