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You can call me old fashioned but thing is..i always into black..hee..black gives me confident..courage n of coz..sexy!
This gawai everything is in black n white...most of all it is dominated by Black! Bestie n boyfie all gave me black dress each for my birthday...x) grateful n overwhelmed!! ;D

Byung Hee Death!

My heart stopped for a moment..this was horrible. i cried because he died..

I cried and cried..till i can't cry anymore.

The moment i watched that scene...i was shocked and then my heart stopped for a while..

He was my favourite.. and he died.

I spent the rest of my day mourning the death of his character..

His personality really got me.

It was so fast.

The moment i started to love and enjoy his character, he died.

It really teach me a lot about friendship and pursuing the dream of someone you love.

The moment i started to love it...that's when the story end.. @TEARS@ :'( * Spoiler Alert!! *

Totally a heart-breaking episode..i never cry mourning for the death of a character this bad...oh my..lee ming ki...ur character Joo Byung Hee really caught my heart! 

shits do come again and again..

Life never been that easy for me..
All i want is just to be free from all those problems..
After one then came another new..
When can this be end?
Will it end when i die?
If only it is that easy to be dead just once..
To run away from all this.
 shit is never tired...they come and come..never ending story..
I know i might sound stupid or foolish..
But sometimes when things keep on falling apart..
You taught yourself to hang on and be strong..
But..
There is the day..the time when u feel wanna break apart and vanish from all of these.
Can you that?
Keep on questioning yourself how to break free from all of these..until the end of time.

Standing in the dark...

"Standing In The Dark" Lawson

Sitting here wide awake
Thinking about when I last saw you
I know you’re not far away
I close my eyes and I still see you
Lying here next to me
Wearing nothing but a smile

Gotta leave right away
Counting cracks along the pavement
To see you face to face
Thinking about the conversation
I know I’m not one to change
I’ve never wanted nothing more
But as I walk up to your door

I'm standing in the dark
She’s dancing on the table
I’m looking through the glass
She’s someone else’s angel
It may sound stupid that I'm wanting you back
But I'm wanting you back, girl
And now I’m standing in the dark, dark, oh
Dark, dark

All I want to do is hide
But I can’t stop myself from staring
Wishing his hands were mine
I can’t stop myself from caring
And as he turns down the lights
I’m feeling paralysed
And as he looks into her eyes
Yeah, alright

I'm standing in the dark
She’s dancing on the table
I’m looking through the glass
She’s someone else’s angel
It may sound stupid that I'm wanting you back
But I'm wanting you back, girl
And now I’m standing in the dark, dark, oh
Dark, dark, oh
Dark, dark, oh
Dark, dark, ohh, oohh

I’m standing in the dark
I’m standing in the dark

I'm standing in the dark
She’s dancing on the table
I’m looking through the glass
She’s someone else’s angel
It may sound stupid that I'm wanting you back
But I'm wanting you back, girl
And now I’m standing in the dark, dark, oh
Dark, dark, oh
Dark, dark
She’s someone else’s angel
She’s someone else’s angel

Wanting someone else back may sound stupid but i know how it feels for those who wanting that.

But everything changing.. No used in wanting you back.

I just standing in my own path and start created my own journey without your shadow anymore because its really hurt haunting by your shadow..and i don't want that anymore...anymore..

in another life..we'll keep all our promises n us againts the world....

First time saw this.....awwwww!!
never seen this before..
what it is? algae? worm? caterpillar?

it is a caterpillar...a rare one...
greenish with furry surface n of coz...amazing...how amazing the world is.. :)
i dont what the name is...so im going to call it greeny! xD

Now you just somebody..that i used to know....

i used to know this person...
the person that i first saw in the church...
knowing nothing about him...
but
somehow fate played a twist on us...
i just known him for his name...
never talk..
few years later...
not knowing will meet him..
he came..
for the first time we ever talked..
sitting down face to face...talking to each other in an awkward way...
not knowing what to say...watching the ground n sky was a good idea to do at time..
fast forward...we had a thing between us after the awkward night we had...thought it would end n the story be gone as the day passed-by...
the feeling both can't denied..end up killing one heart...
first thought it was for the sake of being flirty n fun...but it ended up being serious...
it is no fun at all...knowing he is not yours coz u just can't have it..
the story stop in July...did the best i could to go with the flow..what is left behind should remains there..just buried away with the past..
then...the memory came n haunt u..
denying it really kills you..
thing got complicated once confession were made...hopes n dreams you gave...
i caught in the middle..should i go, should i let go...its hard to deny...
stucked in hopes n reality...
reality really kills you...
hope lost to reality...
the truth finally out...
i can't fight reality...
my hope remain hope...
tears...misery..broken hearted...
i let go...i lost to reality...
reality won again...twice...
i guess hope never will be reality...
reality really bite...
its does...its hurt! :'(
now...
you just somebody that i used to know...

i cannot stop my tears...it really hurt....fall out of heaven twice..it really hurt!

sorry..it is easy to say...sorry..sorry...its wont make any change...

i never know how stupid i am...i really fall for u..u gave me hopes..promises...
but now u are taking it back from me????
if i die..i blame it on you..yes YOU PIGGY!!!

a day on my own..
i wish i can just have..one day...a day on my own..the day according to me..where thing happens beyond my control!
* this pills is making me thinking too much* n now i feel the effect from my healing process..dayumm..its hurting my back..my veins...
ok..back to my own day..i wish a day where i can be alone sitting by the beach..n just enjoy the beautiful scenery..its remind me of Beach Republic....sigh..i wanna go there..

1st March...
I just can't stop hoping....hearing ur name...looking at your stuffs...ur image...it is all over me...how am i supposed to survive this? i'm always be the fool that u give hopes to..always!
it's not once but twice...u hurting me!
it always me who got hurt....always me!

I guess it is even now right...jokes come down on me..well..thank you!

hurting me n being mean to me is ok right? i get all the tears..all the rejection..all the false hopes...it will always be me..all these tears..hopes..
i just dont know what to do now...im really hoping....hoping till my last breath..

stress...stress..stress..

the only word that can describe how i feel this few days...

Blogging using ur mobile is ain't that fun...reason?

let me tell you why..
1. i got so many typo..
2. i cannot upload most of my pictures..\
3. cannot customize my blog layout
4. i guess it's because of my phone and my mobile network..

I need to spend more time on this blog..Seriously!

The day i go Violet!

2013...20th February..
Goin purple..i never thought of that before..ever! As i got back from school that day..an idea came to me... Lets go to the saloon..i really need a head massage!
I had a rough week!
Randomly i told the shampoo girl i want a new colour.. n then a crazy thought came in..what if i go purple or red? will that be so obvious? duhh...so instead of going for the normal one.. i chosed violet!
Mummy was a bit...well u know what the reaction for every mother if their daughter got a tattoo or nipple piercing. xD
Seriously im lovin it...new hair new colour..i feel brand new!
Well..i know i have gone too far but sometimes, rules are meant to be broken..sometimes! :P

                                        Day 2 :

a few minutes after came out of the saloon.. :

Day 1 :

A bite of life.

I know...n i always know...u never change..giving me false hope.. N im just a fool that still waiting n always waiting....

Ouch!

What kids fear the most? Away from their teddy? Being alone?
As for me...i hate the dentist..coz that is what i fear the most..ever!
But i guess kids nowadays are braver than me...
Gosh...the dental nurse came to visit our class last Monday..n i told my kids that nothing to fear of...
How i wish i can tell myself this when i was a lil kids...
The kids seem to be excited n anxious! They seem to be happy to meet up with the dental nurse...pheww..that was *ok..i feel glad* At least no one is crying...
The kids seem to enjoy the session with the dental.nurse...n of coz...i am.happy too! :)

an apple a day keeps the dentist away..:)

y cant i love those who really love me...y do i love you more than him even i know it is wrong...gosh...i hate it when you came back again..u made me love u more n more even im trying hard to forget u...

This feeling is really confusing!
I love A a lot...but i stay with B coz of guilty n pity....i don't want to break his heart..he is an angel sent from heaven to help me..n yes i should treat n love him likes he does..but god..my heart is with someone else...the guy that once left me without words...the one that made me lost all my hopes.....

This feeling is really confusing!
I love A a lot...but i stay with B coz of guilty n pity....i don't want to break his heart..he is an angel sent from heaven to help me..n yes i should treat n love him likes he do..but god..my heart is with someone else...the guy that once left me without words...the one that made me lost all my hopes.....

2013.....

2013..it started with....i just can't describe.

part of me wanting u so bad but part of me feeling guilty towards him. he is the nicest person ever.
being with me when i was dying from missing you. saved me from the misery u left me.
do i feel guilty? or do i love him?
but yes..i couldn't cheat myself. i do still love you..i always love you from the beginning till the day u walk out of my life...then he came and helped me to forget u...* just for a while* u came again..n yes..i just can't help myself from falling into deep to you...
how am i to confront him when it is clearly i'm still in love with u...
Oh God..help me to face this...i am feeling guilty towards him...yes i do fall in love with him once but now i have doubt on my feeling..is it for real or for the sake of forgetting him......
It's complicated now....