What I Want For Christmas 2010

auchhh...i hate waiting...

now is just 6.06 p.m. aaahhh..still got an hour to go..i just can't wait to fly back home...i hope my flight won't be delay..n i hope it's not raining later.

this year Christmas seems kinda extraordinary coz we have a new member in the house. Yah, my auntie just gave birth to a baby boy. I got a new cute little baby cousin, Oswald.

This year Christmas list seems to be a little bit shorter than last year. =P

i guess so..hehehe..

1. Christmas with my family at my mum's place..yahh..can't wait to go back to Serian when i reach Kuching.

2. A new LBD..hehehe..every Christmas i must have a new LBD..in case some of you didn't know what an LBD is..It is Little Black Dress.. 

I got mine already yesterday..bought it with my bestie, Dexter.

3. A new black cardigan.. Got it too..:D

4. A new phone..perhaps..haha..daddy please buy me one coz i heard u bought Brenda a new phone for this Christmas..hehehe...where is mine???

5. Elianto Marble Earth Color Blusher and Black Stage Eye Liner. * still searching for this coz i can't find it in Miri..I hope mum buy this for my present..huhuhu

6. An Ipad...hehehe...anyone generously buy me this? LOL

7. My boyfriend for Christmas...huahuaaaa...i miss Mac so much.. wish Lawas and Kuching is just a few blocks away...huhuhuhu..

and lastly.....

8. Everyone to be happy and feel bless this coming new year.. :)

I just hope all my wish will come true..and MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!! 

Love Thia..:)

btw, got to go to the boarding gate now...take care n MUAHX!!!

When i don't know what to do..='(

the day will be gloom..

my mind will start playing this song, "You're Are Not Alone" Meredith Andrews. 

my heart beats will become so slow till i barely can feel it.

i'll be so disturbing at this moment. 

i'll make that fake smile and fake laugh so that no one know. 

tears will roll down my cheeks as i close my eyes. 

i just don' get it, there is a time when i feel so left behind. the time when everyone so busy with their own life.

time when i feel rejected and bored especially in this Oil Town..Miri. 

10.December.2010

it's raining outside, the wind blow smoothly going through my face, the atmosphere seem so quite. everyone is out. and me sitting here in front of my notebook. staring at the updates from FB and not knowing what to do to survive this situation.

today, at this moment..again..i feel left alone..

My Mac is at Brunei at the moment and he can't text or call me..we only communicate using Skype. If only he is here with me..i won't feel likes this.. :'(

My friends are all busy with their own activities including dating. I don't blame them. It's their life, i can't stop peoples from doing what they want to do. I just wish i'm in Kuching now. It's maybe because i miss my family and friends in Kuching..that what makes me feel so gloomy today..i really need friend to laugh and talk with now but there is no one available. i wanna go shopping but no one is there to company me. hummm...i wish this is Kuching. In Kuching, i can do anything by myself. I won't feel so desperate like now. I will just start off my car's engine and drive to the nearest hang-out spot or my gf's house and we'll go window shopping together. Here, i have to text or ask THEM whether their free or able to company me.. since my classmates started dating, i feel so alone. ya, i know they should spend more time with their partner but i really feel left behind by them. I know that i always troublesome them by asking them to bring me out. Yah, i'm a shoppaholic, i'm a  movie goers and i love to go out whenever i'm free. I'm so bored till i wanna hit my own head on the wall right now. I just miss Kuching. I got a lot of Gfs there and my bffs are always be free for me. 

I just can't wait to go home..I really miss to KAYO-KAYO in Kuching....

Bruno Mars - Grenade [Official Music Video]

Grenade..

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss, Had your eyes wide open -
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked, Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh You’ d watch me burn down in flames You said you loved me you're a liar Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No, no, no, no

i felt this before..he ripped my heart into pieces..what i did and what we had is meaningless for him.

gave him all i had but he tossed it in the thrash...

just a memory with him...hope it never happen again..:)

My daily routine in IPGM..

Weekdays ::


Monday - Friday and sometimes Saturday..


6.30 a.m ~ Wake Up..** i'm not a morning person **
6.45 a.m ~ Get dress up..Choose outfit of the day, hair-do and make up. =)
7.05 a.m ~ Breakfast time..** Hot Milo with Maggie Instant Noodle/Toast
7.20 a.m ~ Walking to the class.
7.30 a.m ~ Class
12.45 p.m ~ Lunch time.. Nyumm...nyumm..hehehe
2.00 p.m ~ Class or Curriculum XTVT..** i'm sleepy..**
5.00 p.m ~ End of XTVT..Yeayyyyy!!
5.30 p.m ~ hang out with my buddies...go "lepak" at the beach or the kopitiam...**Kolo Mee** =D
7.00 p.m ~ Cook dinner..~ Usually i go for simple meal..hehe...or Microwave-Heated Meal. =P
8.00 p.m ~ Makan!!
8.30 p.m ~ Gossiping on the dinner table...hehehe...** Girls will always be girls..
9.00 p.m ~ Wash dishes and teasing with each others..we used to poke each others at the waist..hahaha
9.30 p.m ~ Shower..
10.00 p.m ~ T.V time..catch my favorite show on time..
11.00 p.m ~ Assignments and revisions time. I'll go online while doing my assignments..FaceBook updates..hehe..


Sleep time??
i used to sleep for 2,3 or 4 hours..the longest is 5 hours..hehehe...
And the cycle goes on and on..hahaahaa...