in another life..we'll keep all our promises n us againts the world....

First time saw this.....awwwww!!
never seen this before..
what it is? algae? worm? caterpillar?

it is a caterpillar...a rare one...
greenish with furry surface n of coz...amazing...how amazing the world is.. :)
i dont what the name is...so im going to call it greeny! xD

Now you just somebody..that i used to know....

i used to know this person...
the person that i first saw in the church...
knowing nothing about him...
but
somehow fate played a twist on us...
i just known him for his name...
never talk..
few years later...
not knowing will meet him..
he came..
for the first time we ever talked..
sitting down face to face...talking to each other in an awkward way...
not knowing what to say...watching the ground n sky was a good idea to do at time..
fast forward...we had a thing between us after the awkward night we had...thought it would end n the story be gone as the day passed-by...
the feeling both can't denied..end up killing one heart...
first thought it was for the sake of being flirty n fun...but it ended up being serious...
it is no fun at all...knowing he is not yours coz u just can't have it..
the story stop in July...did the best i could to go with the flow..what is left behind should remains there..just buried away with the past..
then...the memory came n haunt u..
denying it really kills you..
thing got complicated once confession were made...hopes n dreams you gave...
i caught in the middle..should i go, should i let go...its hard to deny...
stucked in hopes n reality...
reality really kills you...
hope lost to reality...
the truth finally out...
i can't fight reality...
my hope remain hope...
tears...misery..broken hearted...
i let go...i lost to reality...
reality won again...twice...
i guess hope never will be reality...
reality really bite...
its does...its hurt! :'(
now...
you just somebody that i used to know...

i cannot stop my tears...it really hurt....fall out of heaven twice..it really hurt!

sorry..it is easy to say...sorry..sorry...its wont make any change...

i never know how stupid i am...i really fall for u..u gave me hopes..promises...
but now u are taking it back from me????
if i die..i blame it on you..yes YOU PIGGY!!!

a day on my own..
i wish i can just have..one day...a day on my own..the day according to me..where thing happens beyond my control!
* this pills is making me thinking too much* n now i feel the effect from my healing process..dayumm..its hurting my back..my veins...
ok..back to my own day..i wish a day where i can be alone sitting by the beach..n just enjoy the beautiful scenery..its remind me of Beach Republic....sigh..i wanna go there..

1st March...
I just can't stop hoping....hearing ur name...looking at your stuffs...ur image...it is all over me...how am i supposed to survive this? i'm always be the fool that u give hopes to..always!
it's not once but twice...u hurting me!
it always me who got hurt....always me!

I guess it is even now right...jokes come down on me..well..thank you!