Monday Blues!

 I may not living in luxurious & glamorous..I may lead the simplest way of life..I sometimes become the black sheep in my society..my hairstyle n way of dress up sometimes caught the attention of fashion's police..my thoughts n ideas may end up rejected by others..my man is not the most handsome man alive nor the strongest or Calvin Klein's Model..My job could be the most common job in the world..sometimes i got rejected n hurt in any ways..or thing just gone wrong...but i'm happy with it because of those simple things, my life is interesting! Feel bless! 
My Facebook's Status for Monday, 20th February 2012..it means a lot to me.!

ALi ft. Yong Jun Hyung - Don't Act Foolish MV Eng Sub & Romanization Lyrics

Even your heart is hurt...don't cry..

Even you feel wanna die...don't die..

Even when they wanna leave...let them go..

Even if you wanna hold on them..DON'T..

Farewell are likes this..at first it really. really hurt.

The sky are falling and everything else crashes..its all chaos.

At times you can't sleep because you are mad and sometimes you can't sleep because you miss them so much.

And then it all starts to fade after that..

Even you had a break-up..don't let your emotion breaks u down.

There is always a sunshine after rain..:)

ALi ft. Yong Jun Hyung - Don't Act Foolish MV Eng Sub & Romanization Lyrics

Even your heart is hurt...don't cry..

Even you feel wanna die...don't die..

Even when they wanna leave...let them go..

Even if you wanna hold on them..DON'T..

Farewell are likes this..at first it really. really hurt.

The sky are falling and everything else crashes..its all chaos.

At times you can't sleep because you are mad and sometimes you can't sleep because you miss them so much.

And then it all starts to fade after that..

Even you had a break-up..don't let your emotion breaks u down.

There is always a sunshine after rain..:)

Hinder - Without You

This song been lingering in my mind...it does remind me of you....

I guess i'm fine without you...

What...7 years plus..likes OMG! what have i done...it is only me to be blame or who...geez...if only my past relationship never end up..we could have been 6 years now...i just wish we never end up..coz he is the reason i become this...he made my life tumble upside down..how i wish i could rebuild our relationship sometimes..so i won't end up being the third person...now...haiz..i know how bad it is being the third person a.k.a SNATCHER! 


coz my past relationship..my true love was snatched away from me..by the third person...n that made me hurt so much..until now..it was never that easy to forgive n forget..sometimes it lingers in my mind..tears falling down...heart felt the pain..the wound bleeds again..well i guess it is true..it takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.


boy..u made me fall for you..you treat me likes your own..you gave me what it called LOVE..you care for me..you made me laugh..you sacrificed your time for me..you made me miss you..you made me smile..n most important, your kiss makes me feel in love..deeply in love..i try my best to avoid this but i was to weak for this..


i am so sorry girl for doing this to you...i never meant to do this...yes..i fall for him..but i know..he is yours..he will never be mine...i promise i will back off..even i know it is hard to do that coz i keep on falling n falling into him..just please give me a chance to love him..to care for him..even from far..


I'M GONNA FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU. YOU DON'T HAVE TO LOVE ME BACK, JUST LET ME LOVE YOU..

My heart can't lie but my mind plays trick on me..

The hardest thing in life is when u have to decide what is the best for u n those around u..

Your heart says it is right but your mind just says NO..that what make it difficult!

Whether u make it follow what your heart says or making the right choice with a rational thinking..

I just couldn't decide what should i do..which should i follow...my heart or my mind?

My heart just can't deny how much i want him..how much i miss him..how much i fall for him..how much i need him by my side...i just can't lie that i don't need him at all.

I miss his laugh, i miss his kiss, i miss his smile, i miss his jokes..n i miss him in every single way.

My mind said the opposite..he's not mine...he is owned by other. He will never can't be mine..coz if he do..i will end up breaking those fragile hearts around him. I don't wanna be the sharp knife of a short life. I don't want to hurt those around him. 

But still, i can't decide what i should do..which should i follow..i hate to see him sad but i don't want to hurt those around him. The guiltiness in me is really making me feeling insecure n paranoid. I don't want to end this relationship but i know i can't be with him forever. He is not mine..n never can't be mine..

I don't want to be a murderer. I am so sorry for doing this. Even i know it is so hard for me to let you go but i know i need to let you go one day..:'(

God..please shows me the right way..gives me your light to get through this dark path..send me an angel to guide me in this life. God, i just want him to know i will always love n remember him forever even we are not meant to be ONE..:)

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The best time i can cry myself out is when i'm driving alone from school..i would drive n crying at the same time..
the only place i can cry alone without no one knowing it... i just don't know to who should i share my problems..i rather cry all alone in the car.
fake a smile and try myself to be happy..
5 days a week..i guess i cry in every single day after work....
I just wish i could tell someone how i feel...what in my mind...but i don't know to who i should...n i end up hurting myself...i just couldn't do..n i hate myself...LOVEY-DOVEY mode is always there with me..everyday..I just hate myself for this...
Cry..cry...can u feel it in my eyes that i actually crying inside...i may look happy but yeah..i'm too good to be true..
I cry inside but i never show it to u..i will always make myself to be funny n act silly..i guess i never that lucky likes her..like them..like u..! I try to cope up with thing n try to be someone better..
I just hold on to my faith n try to be the happiest girl..try my best to make myself smile n laugh even i know sometimes it's FAKE..